Experiments in Living

As I’ve been meditating for almost a month, I can draw some conclusions and observations from the practice and how it is becoming integrated into my daily life.

I look forward to the mornings

When the alarm goes off I am happy to get up as I know the first activity of the day will be an enjoyable one. During the meditation, I feel calm and relaxed, and this helps set the day off well. The meditations did feel like hard work during the first few days, and sometimes it was boring. It was uncomfortable too as I often found my back hurting as I tried to maintain the upright posture. I feel less discomfort now, perhaps that is due to the muscles in my back strengthening.

Independence

I deliberately chose a meditation method that did not rely on external stimuli. I like guided visualisations from time to time as a way to relax, but I wanted to have a morning practice that relied on nothing more that me being present. The Clairvision CDs have some recorded practices on to help you with awareness, postures and breathing, but the emphasis is on “see for yourself, know for yourself” rather than visualisation. The experiential side of the meditation programme is what really attracted me to this method.

Towards clarity

Sometimes I feel as though I am moving backwards through my meditations. For example, I have found myself thinking about events that I haven’t thought about in years, way back in my childhood. When I become aware that I am thinking, I release the thoughts, but it feels as though mud is being stirred up from the bottom of a river bed. This seems to me like part of the cleansing process when you change your diet, where you find that your skin breaks out or you get headaches as the toxins are released from your body. I may be way off the mark, but this seems like a sort of psychic cleansing. I know I need to push through this so that I can raise my consciousness.

Outside the practices

During the day, I am finding that there is an afterglow that lasts long after the twenty minutes in the morning. I feel more aware somehow, that feeling that life is just passing me by has been replaced by the feeling that I am more involved in the flow of life. I feel more engaged in even the most mundane tasks, like everything is connected.

The journey continues… stay tuned!

If you enjoyed this post, you may want to check out Six degrees of meditation

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